Distractions have a way of making me need to take a critical look at my priorities.
What is it that I want in life?
What do I know my purpose to be?
Am I reaching my potential, or settling for the first sign of success?
So many questions cause me to linger at the cusp of joy and suffering.
Am I copying what I see, or truly charting a new course, led by the spirit of life and love?
They say your brain finally finishes developing around age twenty five, but that doesn’t mean neurons stop growing. The more we learn, the more grey and white matter can develop. The more we intentionally seek growth, the more infinite our minds become.
The infinity of learning is at our mind’s door, the ability to see into an eternity of the discovery of love, reaching uncharted heights, interweaving galactic magnificence with cellular generation, birthing new consciousness.
My education has brought me to the realization that my privilege and prosperity is not righteous. I am not to perpetuate the ideas that have been given to me. Instead, I plead for the transformation of my mind – a corrupted earthly vessel, so that I may perceive clearly the path on which I walk. Deception is covering every truth, layers of tradition and say so blocking the potential of the masses.
Am I to stand idly by, continuing to exist in the middle class which oppresses the poor and comforts the rich?
Am I to see the suffering and try to hide it with a contribution to charity?
Am I to indulge in luxury when I live in a world where children go hungry?
The contradictions of society’s ideal are a mountain of garbage on top of a beautiful pearl. Heaps of trash infused into the minds of infants, dulling their senses.
Babies looking at screens instead of human faces. Children hearing negative words spoken over and around them. Preservatives, pesticides, and hormones poisoning our daily nourishment.
By beholding we have become changed.
We must stop looking around us for the answers, and instead look up. We must not rely on history or what others tell us, and instead ask the Creator of our beings, the ONE who gave us everything perfect in the beginning.
Only YAHWEH can create a WAY out of the mess we’ve made for ourselves. And this is the good news: HE HAS.
In the words of Jesus, the Christ, “you must be born by the Spirit to enter the kingdom of God”. (John 3:7) “God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.” (John 4:24)
“He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father who sent Him. Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has already passed from death into life. “(John 5:23-24)
If we choose to believe that Jesus is the son of the living God, divine human, we have entered into life. A tree that is alive is ever growing, flourishing, flowering and producing fruit. A human that has entered into life is no different. Life doesn’t end unless a branch is broken, the tree is cut down, or the sun stops shining. One cannot enter into life and remain the same. Life produces change – new leaves, flower buds, seeds falling to the ground, new plants growing up under the shade of their mother.
This is manifestation of the kingdom of God. This is the experience of one who is born of the Spirit. “The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:8)
So, back to the questions about my priorities…
What is it that I want in life? To fulfill my purpose, by being born of the Spirit, each moment growing more and more into the likeness of Christ.
What do I know my purpose to be? To manifest the kingdom of God, by rejecting the norms of society, questioning the origin of every practice, and focusing my efforts in loving God, and loving others.
Am I reaching my potential, or settling for the first sign of success? My potential is a moving target, with infinite levels to achieve. My potential will continue exponentially into eternity, if my aim is pure and my motion is steady.
Settling, on the other hand, is focused on the approval of humans. As Jesus himself said,
“…it is hard to see how true faith is even possible for you: you are consumed by the approval of other men, longing to look good in their eyes; and yet you disregard the approval of the one true God.” (John 5:44)
I will not stand by, refuse the light I’ve received, and continue to perpetuate the “American Dream”. Nothing of the sort exists. Only wealth and poverty, castes, and segregation, masked by media’s seductive poison.
I will not be a slave to the system, trading for dollars pieces of my soul.
I will not engage in the pursuit of pleasure that wastes resources and exploits human kind, creations of the Most High.
I cannot claim to have the answers to all of life’s questions, nor even complete answers to just some of them. My knowledge and understanding is so small compared to the expansive wisdom of Jehovah. There is one thing I do know, MY FATHER, because I am his daughter, his little lamb. My father’s voice is the one who calls me, day and night, in the chaos and in the silence. My one true refuge, my rock.
My father gives me everything I have. Nothing of myself is my own.
This body, His dwelling. This inhale, His exhale.
Each morning I receive new grace, opportunities to participate in building up the little ones, to speak blessing over every living being, to offer help in any way I can, to seek peace and pursue it. To learn, to grow, with perfection as my goal.
May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, oh Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.