First Fast

Theres something beautiful that happens when we choose to be obedient to God.

He enlightens us.

The way I choose to live my life is very backwards at times. I get lost in my own desires, I focus on myself and what is good for me, and I forget how to surrender. God has this way of drawing us back to Him, even when we think we’re already there.

I have found one of the most dangerous places to be is on the edge of “All In.” That place on the fence. The place of complacency. Where being obedient is so difficult in our human minds that we keep it an arm’s length away.

When we choose to surrender, to actually obey the Holy Spirit, BIG things happen. Surrender is not a one time process. Its a daily thing. It is asking God to show us the things we can do today to be closer to Him. And trust me, He will show you, if you truly want to see.

I find that so many times in my own life, I was content only seeing with one eye. Content being half blind. Why? Because I didn’t want to change. Change seemed to be so painful, so unattainable. I was comfortable. The whole picture was waiting right in front of me, waiting to be seen with both eyes, but I chose to be blind.

Only when I chose to surrender, when I continually choose to surrender, do I begin to see clearly. Through the glasses of God, life becomes simple.

Just follow.

I spent years running away from God, but the moment that I turned my heart towards Him, He began to show me things that I needed to do to be closer to Him. Some of the things were simple, but many of them took courage, faith and heaps of trust.

He continues to show me things in my life that are keeping us apart. Praise Him!

Only through constant prayer, and continual reliance on Him am I able to progress forward into the life that He has planned for me. Its a daily thing. Its me coming to the feet of Jesus, laying myself aside, and asking Him to fill me.

I have been fasting for almost 30 hours now, because God called me to.

The first 12-15 hours weren’t so difficult, but the hours before bedtime and these early hours of the morning are the most challenging. God woke me up at 3am to pray. He told me to call into the 4:45 prayer call. And from a place of complete trust, I obeyed.

Obedience brings abundant blessings.

When I woke up around 3, I was feeling confused, my mind racing at the speed of light. Focusing my thoughts on God and His love for me, on my friends who need Him too, brought my mind to a center. The focus of my prayer call was trust. Matthew 6:25-34 sums it all up.

“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” (Matt 6:34)

I WAS WORRYING. And God gently reminded me once again, to trust Him. Not just say I do, but to actually surrender, to put myself aside and trust.

God uses so many different things to show us that He loves us. He brings us to a place where we must make a decision. To obey or to do our own way.

When we choose to obey, beautiful things happen.

Lights come on.

We see the whole picture.

Clearly.

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