So I went to the pool to swim laps, and there was kind of a pool party going on. Not alot of music, alot of duchy looking dudes and not enough sunscreen. I just wanted to be in the water. I think I am a mermaid, I need to live near water.
Anyways, as I sat on the pool step taking a few breaths between laps, a friendly looking foreign man befriended me. We chatted about water, travel, bees, education, dental things, partying, Jesus, evolution, peace and love, among other things. He was a talkative one. He mentioned things that were not Biblical, and when I tried to explain that there is truth, and that there is a God, he had a quick response that shot down my faith. I did not feel that my efforts were effective. I prayed for deliverance in a repentful way. Praise God for His grace because He sent an angel in the form of quiet, non-duchy looking dude. He sat down next to the possessed man, and gave me a distraction. A chance to collect my thoughts and finish my laps.
I have been asking God to give me the strength to overcome any obstacle that prevents me from serving Him. I just want to share my love for Jesus. I want His love to penetrate my soul. Through this experience, God continued to show me- because this is not the first time something like this has happened- that marijuana is one of my idols. It is something that has been proven to destroy and cause pain. Marijuana took away my cognitive ability to defend my faith in Jesus. Praise God for already giving me the tools I need to remove it from my lifestyle! For a very long time God has been working in my life to get to this moment- let this be a testimony for you! The Holy Spirit is waiting to be poured out to us! We have to ask for it, search for it. God promises that when we actively try to find Him, we will always find Him. God never changes.
Just as a side note, I have done enough drugs in my short life to testify that they really arent that fun. They make us feel stupid and do crazy things. They make life good for a little while, and then they just make things difficult. We get ourselves into positions we wish we were never in, we do things we regret and end up feeling sad and alone and empty. Ive been there. Ive felt those things. Many times. Too many times to count and yet Jesus still wants to save me. Its just not fun anymore. I dont know if it ever was. I think I was trying so hard to trick myself into thinking that smoking anything was making me a better person. Was making me cooler or more popular. When I take a step back and look at my life I sometimes wonder what I could have been thinking!
Praise God for always being the same! While I keep going back to my selfish ways, God stays the same.
God gives me victory over life’s greatest temptations and trials. I just flushed my stumbling block down the toilet and what a freeing feeling! Jesus still performs miracles, I am here to tell you that. He sends angels when we ask, and He gives us all the tools we need to follow Him.
“May the Lord answer you in the day of trouble… May He grant you according to your heart’s desire, And fulfill all your purposes… Now I know that the Lord saves His children, He will answer prayers from Heaven with saving strength. Some trust in chariots, and some trust in horses, but we will remember the name of the Lord our God. They have bowed down and fallen: but we have risen and stand upright. Praise God!” Psalm 20: 1-9 (paraphrased)