This is what it feels like.
To have men in your life who care about you just because.
Because its the right thing to do.
Because Im family.
I always wanted a big brother. Someone who would carry the conversation for me.
I know its real because we share blood.
I dont know what Im looking for. The light has faded. The storm has passed.
I just want to feel alive again. Like something matters. Like Im living.