Life Loving Jesus

This is what it feels like.

To have men in your life who care about you just because.

Because its the right thing to do.

Because Im family.

I always wanted a big brother. Someone who would carry the conversation for me.

I know its real because we share blood.

I dont know what Im looking for. The light has faded. The storm has passed. 

I just want to feel alive again. Like something matters. Like Im living.